Oh dear god, it’s only been a week or so but I’m panicking about everything that is now missing – has not been recorded here. If it’s not here, did it really happen? No, it did not – or at least that will be my perspective in a few years time.
I am currently reading Moonwalking With Einstein which is making me even more jittery about this sort of thing – what you do and don’t remember. Today, by the way, was a shocker. M came home early to be greeted by having his arse hauled over hot coals for all the household things he nicked to use on his Grand Boating Birthday Weekend…
And after that I crumpled into a tearful mess about How Much I Can’t Get Done – due to working from home with an uber-clingy 18 month old. (Will I put her in childcare? No. Will I decamp to the library? When she improves, as my dictation software has been kicked into a corner, where it languishes.)
Meanwhile, here’s the solution – we will give up our ‘family day’ and M will do two kid wrangling days. (Hello? Mother? If you’re out there? The day every week that you come here will now be for R&R – let me hear you CHEER! No longer will you have to see me at snapping point each week…) At the present time, this is the only workable solution to my fraying mental health. I have a HEAP of work, as one of my colleagues is having surgery in a month…
And adding to the brew… Here’s why I STILL love Ask Moxie:
Personally, having nursed two kids through the 18-month I-can’t-stand-this-for-one-more-second, it-makes-me-feel-like-a-worn-out-old-sow, stop-stop-for-the-love-of-all-that’s-holy-stop phase, I think it’s easier just to self-medicate through the nursing with chocolate and do the weaning in two or three months (why is 21 months so much easier than 18?).
Because although she’s speaking to ALL of her readers, it’s like she’s actually just speaking to ME. Things are hard in the boob department at the moment. I am tempted to believe that a LOT of things would get easier if Small DB was weaned. However, she is right in that 18 month phase that was just mentioned and while it’s doing my head in, I want to support her little baby needs. Needs that will hopefully slacken off after a few more weeks and then… Then I will encourage the Wean.
There you go. I still haven’t posted the pictures of our Farm Excursion or M’s Festival of Fifty! You can read a very lovely post he did here. As he has no breastmilk and doesn’t get woken at night, he can spend time on such things. (Me? Bitter? Only slightly…)
Over and out.